Ridiculous.

It is ridiculous. It is ridiculous that I am wide awake and thinking about her and she is fast asleep.

It is ridiculous how invested I am and how she wants to be invested but is too afraid to put her closely guarded deposit down. (God I love a finance metaphor!)

It is ridiculous that I, an adult, can’t just go up to her and tell her how I feel and kiss her.

It’s even more ridiculous that I contemplate doing that on a daily basis and yet when I see her I can barely muster a smile.

It is utterly ridiculous that I tell myself that I can be the one to make her happy and confident.

Ridiculous.

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