Snow I had another dream.

And this dream involved snow (kinda), hence the title…

I was staying at a friend’s house for Christmas and it had snowed. It was freezing cold outside but for some reason we went out and had drinks and had a BBQ. She had a big pond at the bottom of her garden which was frozen over. Another friend of mine told me to go and tread on the ice. I did. I fell through and the pond was about 5 foot deep. I panicked but soon I saw my friend running over, laughing. She held down one hand for me to take hold of and I was soon out of the water – freezing cold but laughing hysterically.

What on earth could this dream have meant?

Is that I need to rescued by someone or that I’m looking for a hand? Is that I need to give someone else a hand? Is it a sign that I should lighten up a bit and take things less seriously or is it warning me to take less risks and avoid ponds?

Some dream analysts suggest that falling into water symbolises emotional instability but I don’t feel unstable, I don’t even feel a bit down.

Apparently it may also suggests that I am prone to fevers and colds…

Finally, a website suggests that I am frozen or “paralysed” in my waking life and that I need to break the ice. Hmmmm.

I’m pretty sure the ice broke when 12 stone of clumsy woman fell through it but oh well… Maybe now I’m looking for a hand to hold onto and pull me out?




When I started thinking about doing these reviews I completely forgot the YouTube community. With its endless sea of LGBTQ videos it should have been an obvious choice but somehow I overlooked it.

I’m going to review channels that offer advice and are prominent in the community; whether they are run by a group of people or an individual. I’ll also be briefly touching upon other influential gay, bi and trans YouTubers. I’ll pop all the links to their channels at the end.

I have a feeling this going to be a long one – let’s get started!

Lesbian YouTube channels:

The Beaver Bunch:

This channel has always been a firm favourite of mine. Originally consisting of Jess, Tina, AJ, Michelle and Lou, the Beaver Bunch has been running since 2008. It was later joined by Lori who took over the Tuesday spot and Kade who became the new face of Friday.

These five Americans each have a very different take on sexuality and gender topics as they are all wonderfully unique. Kade offers an insight into trans life as he is a trans man and seeing him happy and successful makes him a great role model.

Over the past 4 years they have covered every topic imaginable from coming out, to sex, to relationship age gaps to religious conversion therapy.

I have always found their videos to be light hearted yet informative and sometimes very emotional.

The only downside to having been around for so long is that occasionally topics are repeated and I felt, for a while, that the channel needed a boost.

I can honestly say that it has happened and they are back on full form again tackling questions about marriage, self respect and hasbians.

Long may The Beaver Bunch reign.

Lesbian answers:

This channel is run by music enthusiast Jenna-Anne promises to “be the lesbian giving you the answers”. And that it does.

Since 2010 Jenna has totted up an impressive 8,257,149 video views and has a following of over 60,000 subscribers.

Her honest, heart warming videos about the emotional side of a lesbian relationship and being who you are hit the nail on the head.

Her videos answer questions sent in by lesbians from around the world and have tended, especially in recent months, to focus on the less talked about subjects and subjects that are denser and more emotionally grounded.

Her channel, which is interjected by the odd hilarious video, is definitely worth a look!

Ask AJ anything:

AJ (who is also Wednesday on The Beaver Bunch) offers no nonsense advice and tips.

From her witty musings on a must have break up kit to her reviews of The Real L Word and her hair styling etiquette she epitomises what a great YouTuber should be.

Gay (male) Youtube channels:


The channel name says it all really…

Unfortunately, I only discovered this channel on its final week but, fortunately, their old videos from the past 4 years are all still there for our viewing pleasure.

What I love about this channel is the diversity; not only in the people but the topics. This channel depicts the real lives of men who just happen to like other men. It’s down to earth, funny and useful: what more could you want?

Queer and Trans YouTube channels:

Baby Beaver Bunch:

This channel is run by lesbian and trans youth who answer questions and give advice. There have been a lot of changes to the channel – especially with who posts videos – but I’ve always found their content to be consistent and enjoyable.

What I like most about this channel is that it is run by young people. It’s all well and good being told that things get better by a 45 year old who is settled and happy but there is nothing quite like having someone who understands what you’re going through because they themselves are currently going through it too.

The success of this channel is evident with over 1 million video views in the past 3 years. Long may it continue in the same vain!

The Trans Youth Channel:

This channel features 7 lovely transsexual women who give their opinions on a different topic each week. It is one of the newer trans channels having only been around for a year but has already established a sound following of over 2 thousand subscribers.

The women are all at different stages of transitioning which makes this channel really interesting as it follows the progress of these 7 women’s lives.

Topics discussed include race and religion, bullying and trans rights as well as the usual topics of gender reassignment surgery, relationships and coming out.


This channel features a whole line up of handsome trans men sharing their experiences and tackling topics. The channel is nearing its first full year on YouTube and will soon reach the milestone of 200,00 video views.

This channel explores more controversial topics and the guys are more than happy to share their own personal experiences as well as fears and aspirations which makes this such a great channel.

Some of them have been on T for months and some years. Other want surgery while some haven’t made their minds up yet. The sheer range of opinions and backgrounds makes every single one of their videos just as enjoyable as the last.


I’ve watched this channel since the beginning which was, rather unbelievably, 4 years ago. Other the past 4 years the layout has changed as had the people who contribute videos but the message has stayed the same.

Despite no new videos appearing on the channel for a year I am always drawn back to it to re-watch ones from my favourite hosts such as Chris, Leah and Mara (I think that’s how you spell it).

The videos were always hilarious, informative and, most importantly, about real people and real life. The hosts were honest and there was a real sense of community. Check them out!


This channel is run by the lovely Linzi. Over the past 4 years it has had over 600,000 video views.

Linzi is spunky, funny and down to earth and open. Her videos track her coming out experience, relationships and her opinions on gender, sexuality and body image.

I’ve been watching her since the very beginning and highly recommend her channel.



So there you have it! Some of my favourite LGBTQ YouTube channels.

Other notable LGBTQ YouTubers include Hannah Hart (MyHarto) , Arielle (ArielleIsHamming), Tabloid Junk (Tabloid Junk), Tyler Oakley (tyleroakley) and Davey Wavey (wickydkewl).

As promised here are the links to the mentioned channels, enjoy!

The Beaver Bunch:

Lesbian Answers:

Ask AJ anything:


Baby Beaver Bunch:

The Trans Youth Channel:


















New Year, same old me.

As some of you will know, my new year starts in September. I’ve always been a great believer in the academic year compared to the calendar year. The main reason for this is that nothing changes in January. I am always exactly the same I was ten minutes ago when it was December in a different year.

I am the same slightly over weight, cat obsessed, crappy catering assistant that I was the previous year. I have the same hopes, fears and pet hates. I live in the same house, wake up in the same bed and sit in the same chair that’s in the same place.

Think I’m annoyed by this? Think I want to change my life?

Well, you’d be wrong.

I am a complete creature of habit. I like order and routine and when that changes I flip. I don’t mean I get a bit grumpy I mean I actually feel sick and automatically resent whatever change has occurred.

This is why I hate technology, confrontations and economic downfalls. All of these things have the potential to change my life and that makes me fret full.

I don’t believe that change can be for the best. I believe that it may not always be the worst but that in some way I will feel short changed.

Maybe I’m like this because of all the pretty dramatic changes in my life and that I’m finally craving stability but can you blame me?

With change comes new responsibility, new challenges and new problems.

I get the impression that an awful lot of people don’t think like me and think that I’m pessimistic. I’m far from it; I’m realistic.

I’d love to live in a world full of nice smelling flowers and sunny skies. I’d love to have the perfect life complete with wife, career and family. But it isn’t going to happen straight away and, yes, I am aware that the more I push change away the more I push that life away but then I also believe that all things happen for a reason so there’s got to be a bit of luck for me somewhere? Please?

It’s not that I’m not hopeful for 2013; I am. I’ve got a lot of stuff to look forward. It’s just that I don’t get the new year hype and I think people are kidding themselves when they genuinely think that their will change for the better. Actually, substantial, progression can take months or maybe years and it certainly won’t happen during a drunken night looking at some mediocre fireworks.

I feel better I’ve got that out of my system. Better, but not much.

Song of the week: week 2.

This week (so far) I’m loving The Corr’s “Breathless”. And there you were thinking I’d be listening to a Christmas song!

Truth be told I’ve been listening to Christmas songs from the 1st of December and, whilst I love them, they’ve been a bit tiresome this year. Granted, Christmas wouldn’t be Christmas without Mariah, Wham and Slade but this year I’m just not feeling it. I have, however, discovered a love for “Fairytale of New York”. But on to my song of the week.

This year 2000 classic has always been a favourite of mine, mostly because for years I thought the lyrics were “leave me Bradley” and I only recently worked out that they were “leave me breathless”. I’ve never claimed to be intelligent.

This is the kind of song that I play full blast when I’m in the car by myself. It is the epitome of finger tapping, head nodding greatness and has always been a winner in my opinion.

It reached #1 in the Irish, Spanish and English charts and was nominated for a Grammy in 2001.

So that’s this week’s song!

In other news, I am exploring alternate ways to get my Lost and delirious review up but if that fails I’ll move onto the next review and come back to that one when I can.

Happy Christmas/December the 25th everyone!

Bye world, you’ve been mediocre.

So the world is going to end tomorrow.

There are a few things that bothers me about that:

 – I’m busy tomorrow night.

 – I’ve spent a crazy amount of money on Christmas presents that no-one will know about.

 – Kelly Clarkson hasn’t proposed to me yet (and, obviously, that was in the pipeline!).

 – I haven’t done any of the things on my list of 50 things to do before I die (I should blog about that. Oh wait the world is going to end tomorrow and I won’t have enough time before that. Sorry…).

 – I haven’t got married, had kids, got divorced and lived in a cottage with 15 cats.

If you’re hoping that I’m about to make some sentimental declaration then I’m afraid you’re about to be disappointed. And the reason for this is that the world isn’t going to end tomorrow and I don’t want to be left picking up the pieces of the sickeningly romantic gestures that I’d made on a mad whim. On top of that, if everyone dies tomorrow then no-one will be around to appreciate my efforts and I don’t see the girl from the shop dying happy knowing that I stare at her whenever I go in there.

A friend of mine once said how unrealistic it would be to go around telling everyone how you feel about them everyday. And I agree! Once in a while it’s nice to hear how much people care about you but everyday would make me feel as though they didn’t really mean it.

Does this end of the world nonsense make me appreciate life more?

No because I think I appreciate life enough as it is.

I’m not about to have some sort of Scrooge-a-like life turn around and run down my street embracing my neighbours and giving all my crisps to people that I once hated. (My crisps are very important to me and not just anyone will be offered some!)

The truth is regardless of whether the world does end tomorrow or not we will never know and everything we have ever done, said or felt will be buried with our bodies. Morbid or just factual?

If we’re still alive next week I’ll finally be putting my Lost and delirious review up and if we’re not I won’t. Happy end of the world/happy generic Friday.


Song of the week: week 1.

The title is pretty self explanatory. Every week I’ll do a brief post about the song that I have on repeat

“Is this a bit like your LGBTQ film review that you only did one of and then didn’t do again?”

In a way yes but also no. I will still be doing my film reviews I just had a technical problem and shall be back up and running soon. It will be similar in the way that I am reviewing it but different in the way that it will be briefer and I’ll be bigging it up!

This week I’m listening to The Ian Carey Project – Get shaky.

What I love about this song is how upbeat it is and how catchy it is. I always watch the video and think about how talented the dancers are and how much I’d love to be able to dance like them.

So that’s what I’m listening to this week. What are you playing on repeat?