Restore me. Restore me to my younger, better self.

This is not about me wanting to return to when I was 11. When I was a nice size and when I felt energetic. (Although if I could return to that time I’d certainly cut down on the chip butties, crisps and the morning Twirl bar…)

I’m talking about my laptop.

My useless, useless laptop.

Yes, I know I’m lucky to have one but the way it’s functioning these days it is almost not worth having it.

The past few days I haven’t been able to connect to the internet and today I contacted Dell. I typed in my express service code and was informed that if I was having problems with the internet I should restore my laptop to the last time that the internet worked. And it worked.

But how?

I literally have no idea how it’s possible.

I’m amazed.


Questions and answers. Answer time.

I’ve just remembered that I’m out tomorrow so I won’t be able to answer it then. So this week I only got one question from pinkagendist which I shall answer now. 🙂

I think I have an about page but I have a feeling I wrote it aaaaaaages ago when I intended this blog to be about comedy; so it’s probably all about my comedic intentions and little else.

Yes, I am gay. I’ve written a couple of posts about it ( and intend to write more in the future. 🙂

Thanks for that question and I hope to get some more questions to answer next week so ask away!

Scrap that. No, literally.

Scrap the diary idea. I’m going to start making a scrapbook. Yeah, I know. I’m not an artistic or creative person so this could be interesting but I am fed up of train tickets, receipts and Kit Kat wrappers falling out of my packed diary left, right and centre.

So I’ve changed tact and, as of tomorrow, I will be a proud owner of a scrapbook.

But what does one put in a scrapbook? How regular does it have to be? Do I have to annotate stuff or can I just stick it in and scribble the date next to it? Do I have to write large passages or is that taboo? Does it have to look pretty or can it just be bland and straight to the point like me?

What kind of scrapbook should I get? What types are there? I’m thinking something with a hard cover and thick, absorbent paper so I can glue till my hearts content.

I know it’s for me and that I shouldn’t be worried about how it looks but I’m pretty fanatical about my diary as it let alone something as personal as a scrapbook.

Do I want one that says “scrapbook” on the front or one with flowers or stripes or a block of colour? Am I going to decorate the front or is it completely pointless?

I know all these questions seem stupid but my diaries mean a lot to me. I’m a very expressive person and so I take pride in how I express myself. Even if no-one else ever sees my diaries and scrapbooks I want to know they’ve been done properly.

And what if someone were to see them? As I’ve mentioned in previous posts I am considering publishing little annotated segments of my diary and some of my old poems. And I’ve also promised a friend of mine from school that when I die she can have my diaries and publish them in their entirety. Or what if a grandchild of mine stumbles upon them and I have to explain to them why it all looks so rushed.

I’ve had a look for some online. One promises to be able to contain my whole life. My whole life in a book? Now that’s a scary thought. It boasts a section where I can write about my education, employment and even a section reserved for a list of things I want to do before I die. But do I really want it to be that structured? Do I want to feel like I’m filling out a job application detailing my every move of the last 19 years?

I think I’m going to have to shop around though I’m concerned I’ll find it hard to settle on one.

I want one that will last me at least a year and promises some form of structure but, as I’m a complete novice, I don’t know where to start.



I’ve always been awful at art.

Some people say that and they are lying. They complain about how awful they are and then they magic up a masterpiece. To those people I say “stuff you!”

Just because I am awful at art doesn’t mean that I can’t appreciate it. I do. I adore art in all its forms: whether it be paintings or photographs, poems or physical art with the body.

I sometimes think that art is such a great expression of how a person can feel which is why I resent the fact that I cannot portray what I feel in an artistic way. I sometimes feel trapped.

Sure I can draw stick people but you can’t really get stick people to show much depth. And I can take a photograph and colour within the lines but when it comes to art I am atrocious. I’m not even going to pretend.

At school I was drawing a bag when my teacher kindly reminded me that the project was to draw a bag and not a shark. We didn’t get on.

I’d like to say that my art was abstract. If it had any flare to it I may be able to get away with that but no. It’s just bad.

Whilst I understand that not everyone can be good at everything it frustrates me that I am not better at art. My dad had considerable graphic skills, my mum took her A Level in art when she was 16 and my cousin is just about to start her art related Master’s degree. Clearly the artistic gene has skipped me.

I’m thinking of getting into photography and I’m saving up for one of those hugely expensive cameras that would make even my pictures look good. But in the meantime I’m just going to drool over everyone’s artwork and one day hope that I will inherit some artistic talent.

This happened today and it was good. 20/08/12

My internet came back today! After a stressed phone call it just randomly came back!

Whilst it’s been off I’ve been thinking about some blogs that I’ve been meaning to do for a while. One is an attempt to be humorous, one a book review and one is about something slightly closer to home. Because they’re going to be quite long they may not be up for a few days but I’ll do some little ones in-between.

On a different note: I’ve not had many replies to my question and answers post and I am keen to make it a regular thing. So please ask me any questions you have about me and my life however trivial or personal they sound and I will answer them all on Saturday.

Have a great day. 🙂

Questions and answers.

I’ve been feeling for a while now that I want to get to know my followers better. I know there’s not loads of you but I feel like I just fire random facts and stories about my life at you and you don’t really have a chance to respond. So, what I’m thinking of doing is giving you the opportunity to ask me questions. I’m not hugely interesting so don’t be surprised if the answers are a bit dull but feel free to ask whatever you want. I’ll gather the questions from that week up and post a blog with all the replies. Again, I really don’t mind what they’re about. 🙂 I think it’ll be a nice way for you to get to know me a bit more and for me to get to know you. So get asking questions and I’ll post a reply this time next week! 😀